I used to starve and I lost 20lbs. I was unhealthy. I cried when I looked in the mirror, I refused to eat, I weighed myself multiple times a day, I cried when the number on the scale went up by .2, food scared me, and weighing less and taking up less space was all I cared about. That was two years ago and I’d like to say that I’m healthy now but now I have full blown bulimia and am 25lbs more than my lowest weight 2 years ago. I’m tired of being controlled by my mind. I’m tired of hating myself.
I’ll be 16 soon and next year I’ll be in college! (I’m kind of a nerd who’s skipped grades and has also been sheltered.) The whole waiting for love to have sex thing seems great BUT going to college a virgin…eh no thanks. Lucky for me I’ve just been told I’ll be going on my second cruise this upcoming January and if cruises are known for anything it’d be endless buffets, old couples, and hot horny teenagers.
I want to have sex with someone. I have humped a couple of girls before. I am a girl. I look at porn and masturbate. I think I’m bisexual because I am a girl. I love it.
So when I was like 16 I was at this kids house. Anyways I got asked him if he had a girlfriend. He said no so I ask him how big he was. He got really embarrassed and ask y I want know. Next thing I know I’m face down with this kid.
I got stripped naked behind the bleachers of a soccer field by a group of boys. They did this because I was 14, younger than most of them and fun to do it in front of girls. Got held down while girl ran up to look at my penis and the embarrassment of getting an erection right in front of them. Laid there totally exposed with girls having a great time looking at it, flicking it and talking about how stiff it was. Embarrassing but I guess it’s what boys do for fun and give girls a thrill.
To The people who feel like killing themselves: remember that each death kills two people. I know it feels tough right now, like no one understands and no one cares, but please remember those who you would leave behind. People in your life love you and would be heartbroken to see you gone. My best friend was bullied close to that point, but she didn’t go through with it. If she was gone, I would have never met her, and I know my life would have changed for the worse. Please reach out for help.
Is it wrong for me to feel weird for being single while everybody is In a relationship
I’m 12 and I’ve cut myself 1,000’s of times
I paid the price for not reporting my abuser. I lost my younger brother when my Stepdad hit him during one of his rages. He is in jail now and so am i, although it is a jail of my own making.
Mum never stopped him hitting me and at 19 i live in a bedsit in the worse part of town. I visit his grave every week and wish i could just lie down and sleep with him. I wish i could tell him i am sorry
Me and my friend often wake up with our arms or legs over each other. Nothing has happened, we sleep over at each others all the time. Is it normal because i just cannot get the feeling out of my head that it is not. I find myself constantly thinking about the way we sleep. Plus sometimes i dash out to the bathroom as soon as i wake up wishing it would stop doing that. I think i am maybe gay.